Until a few days ago, I had never given a piggyback ride. I’m so quiet that children often don’t think of asking me for them, and I wasn’t about to offer one because I am not at all athletic. I suspected that piggyback rides were one of those things that “everyone” is strong enough to do but that I wouldn’t be able to manage.
Besides, I had miraculously learned to operate a canoe without capsizing the day before, and didn’t want to push my luck.
However, five minutes before my service group left the Urban Ecology Center for good, ten-year-old Jason asked me, “Can I ride on your back?”
“Sure!” I said jovially, as if I gave piggyback rides every day.
I didn’t immediately drop the boy or fall over, but I soon began to worry that I was failing after all. I was supporting too much of his weight with my left arm, and I could feel him shifting every few seconds, trying to get a better grip, and wondered if that meant I was doing something wrong and he was too polite to complain.
As I continued, he felt heavier and heavier and my arm started to hurt. If I had been carrying anything else, I probably would have felt incapable of continuing and stopped long before, no matter who scoffed at my weakness. For some reason, though, I couldn’t bear to disappoint him.
Only when we reached the Urban Ecology Center and he called out, cheerfully, “You can put me down now!” did I lower him to the ground, feeling that I’d passed an important test.
When he asked me for a lift, I don’t think he could have meant to do me a favor, to make me feel included and useful, or to show me that I was stronger than I thought I was, but that’s what he did. Knowing that a friendly, cute, outgoing kid who was getting plenty of attention from other people had noticed me and decided he could depend on me for a favor not only raised my self-esteem, but also inspired me to live up to his opinion of me.
Now I know that when I’m motivated enough, I can do things that formerly seemed impossible, and I don’t have an excuse for not trying.
Major: Theology and American Studies
Host Site: CapCorps, Milwaukee
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